At the Beginning

God answers prayers and it doesn’t take a lot of big words and repetition for Him to answer them. It’s often the most simple requests that He answers almost instantly.

I know I’m in the right place and I’m looking forward to the coming weeks and months to see what God has in store for me and what He has planned for the people in my life who don’t even know that God has anything at all planned for them.

thinking about where I’m going to be in a year and a half and start living in the moment.

True, I will probably be leaving Savannah in a year and a half which I’m freaking out over a bit… but I’m here now so I need to really really enjoy it and build relationships that can survive long distances.

Why can’t I just stay in this moment forever… why do things always have to change?

1. Draw a lot and not be concerned with whether my drawings look like someone else’s. I need to stop comparing myself to every person here which only serves to make me upset and overwhelmed. I have artistic talent and I’m ready to stop being afraid and start using it.

2. Spend WAY less time on the Internet. I’m already doing better with this, but I need to keep getting better.

3. Sleep less. I value sleep way too much and sleep more than 8 hours every night. I need to stop being lazy and get up earlier in the morning.

4. Memorize scripture. There are a few verses in particular I want to memorize soon.

5. Live my life in a way that is glorifying to God so that people could look at my life and attribute my actions to God and desire to know more about Him.

6. Fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel.

7. Spend time with God in prayer and worship and reading scripture.

8. Love the people that God has put on my heart and don’t give up on them.

1. Memorize scripture. I really would like to finish memorizing Philippians.

2. Read a lot of books, especially Christian books which will help me grow in my faith and hopefully prepare me better for seminary.

3. Spend a lot of time in prayer and worship.

4. Find some more volunteer opportunities.

5. Read the Bible every day

6. Spend a lot less time online.

7. Sketch every day even if it’s just for 10 minutes.

8. Learn to play the ukelele

9. Stop sleeping so much. I need to get up earlier.

10. Stop living in the past and enjoy the moment.

11. Love people better. I want to be a better listener and a better servant and to put people ahead of myself. As I have been learning recently: it’s great to be loved, but it’s a privilege and a wonderful thing to love people without expecting anything in return.

12. Cook more.

13. Give away things and stop placing so much significance on material possessions.

14. Exercise some? Maybe? We will have to see about that one.

It’s so much easier not to be consumed by the internet when I actually have fun things going on in my real life. I haven’t really checked anything today and it has kind of been nice!

So thankful to God to have the opportunity to try and love people the way that Jesus loves me. I know that I wouldn’t have the relationship with Him that I do if it weren’t for a couple of people who pursued me in spite of my shyness and in spite of my perception that I didn’t fit in. I want to love people exactly the way they are so they can see that Jesus loves them exactly the way they are even when they are hurting and broken. I want to pursue people and listen to their problems and just be there for them. I want people to be able to be open and honest with me, but I want to be there even when they don’t feel like sharing everything or anything. I just want to love and for everyone to feel loved and to know that it comes from Jesus. I want to be a light among everyone I come into contact with. I want to be a light in the darkest darkness, because in the dark of the world, one light can make all the difference. And I know I sometimes suck at being a light, but I want to strive to be the best light I can be. I’m thankful right now to be where I am and to have the time I do in Savannah to hopefully impact people’s lives for the better. I know I can’t do it on my own, but with God all things are possible.